Need to spend money:

I have too much I need to spend money on:

Dental work: Cavities need drill and fill.
Car repairs: Rotors, spark plugs, fuel filter, air conditioner
Doctors visit check up on some issues.

Good Day

Saw my grandfather and grandmother and I hung out with my mom and dad and brother.

I got a little frustrated with my brother today, we argued a bit.

There were a couple of issues.... One he thought that my choice of insurance and roadside rescue was a poor choice thought I was paying too much. I may be, but I have been having a difficult time finding a reputable insurance company that will cover me for less than I am paying because my driving history. There isn't anything catastrophic, but a few little blips can certainly raise up the rates. Earlier in the day there was a big argument about finding a home for a bird that I had left behind. My mom has been taking care of the bird, but it has been a burden. She would like for her to go to a good home, but I am not sure she isn't too attached to it. I think I may have found a home for it if she really does want to see it find a new home.

At any rate, it certainly causes a whole lot of grief this morning.

All in all it was a good day.

I got to spend a whole lot of time with family.

Random raw humor thought....

Just like gas...This too shall pass.

I know....this entry stinks!

Are prayers being answered?

Are prayers being answered?
Have I found a new calling?
Is God calling me?
I am beginning to think so, though I am still searching.

I feel like sometimes I can hear God's voice calling me leading me, but I am only hearing the echos. I can't figure out what way to go.

Sometimes it is almost like I am following something that is moving from a distance crouching behind objects to hide. It is a human thing to do, trying to follow God but not too closely. It is like we resist the change and try to hold on to our identity rather than become one with God. I have a hard time with the Ego sometimes here. It isn't about me! As a pastor in my life has said, "More of Him and less of me."

I was talking to myself when I was alone on my drive home today. I found myself saying I am blessed I am so blessed I am so blessed.

Ah, but am I really hearing God, or am I just fooling myself? Where is my God? Sometimes the voice is so faint that I wonder if it is really God....Although I guess if God were to really come into my apartment right now and stand before me and speak to me directly, I must admit that might be a little startling.

Ever go through a situation where things were getting really uncomfortable and dangerous or just the potential for things to go awry with no backup plans and things were getting worse with no signs of improvement or possibility for improvement? Somehow I seem to get through those times. I don't see the solution and I can get stressed out about it, but unexpected answers come.

I think sometimes it is important to look hard and rely on our own understanding when looking for answers so that we can see how wonderful the unexpected solutions that God presents to us truly are.