To work or not to work

Odd question.

Seems obvious enough....go out try to find work and work...right?

Not so simple. First, have to be able to find SUITABLE work...and when you are in the amount of pain taking medication that changes levels of neurotransmitters trying to get balanced out, nothing seems like a good fit.

But is that the frame of mind talking, or the physical conditions?

Good question...one might say it is the frame of mind because I have worked in this condition before.....but then you might say that the condition has worsened over time (which it has) and then that theory is now not applicable...

OK, is it really physically impossible to work?

NO. Not if an employer is wiling to work around my disabilities, which does not seem to be happening.

What do I need? Short shifts, a variety of work (can't stand or sit too long), flexible hours to make doctors appointments.

However, finding a good employer at all these days is a challenge, and people have to "suck it up"

There comes a point where no one can compensate you enough for the pain you are being put though, or they refuse to. There comes a point where a person decides to quit putting other people's desires above their own health and needs.

Corinthians 5:8 (I am still here)

I am still here only because God wants me to be.

Some times it it my own selfish desires that wants me to be home with the Lord.

I know it is not my choice when I will go home. This is only in God's hands. Only God knows the day and the hour of when I will go home.

"We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord." - 2 Corinthians 5:8

Rescheduled Meeting

I reschedule a meeting I had on Friday to attend a funeral.

Well, looks like today isn't going to work out for one of the attendees today. (one of the primary).

So, I have more time to organize the meeting to get the most out of it!

Good!

White Rock Lake Festival

Had a good time a the white rock lake festival. My roommate came back with a couple piggy banks and I came back with one. I didn't buy any food or drinks out there, but I enjoyed some free candy and some free water. The music was nice, not just outstanding, but nice. I got a little bit hot and tired, so I headed home for a break. That is when the weather turned.

Update

Been too long! I have some back-blogging to do!

Today, I should get my car back after work. I have been taking public transportation and riding the bus for over a month. The first estimates I got on my brakes were ridiculous, but I got a good deal over at Cico thanks to the recommendation of Tom Scott.

Back Online

I have been astray. I have been online, just haven't been here. So much has happened in the past few weeks. It has been an interesting ride. Back in January of this year, I was laid off from a job I held for about seven years. I have been looking for a suitable replacement ever since I heard the news. I worked a job a couple of weeks ago that I thought was the one, the job that my life had led up to...at least a bridge to the next job. I was working as a patient services coordinator at a fibromyalgia clinic. I had a great time, felt like I learned quite a bit, but unfortunately it was a temporary job and they decided not to keep me.

So, I have been filling my schedule with things other than work again. I am doing some volunteer work, getting some bass practicing in, keeping things a little extra organized at home, and what not, while I look for the ideal position for me.

Financially, I am not doing too bad. I still have a slightly more in the bank than I owe, which is a wonderful feeling especially considering I owed about twelve thousand a couple of years ago and had no money!

I have been messing around a bit looking for that soul mate, and not getting very far. Looking for a job and my soul mate at the same time...fun. I guess I should be looking for a new place to stay too! Yea, that isn't stressful at all now is it?

Missed Opportunities High School

Well I found out something rather profound the other day. Someone I knew while I was growing up that lived down the street....someone I thought was a pretty good guy...and thought was cute....someone I never said anything to about it.....thought that I was cute and had a crush on me. So the whole time I am checking him out and afraid to say anything....he had a crush on me...and I found out 12 years later!

So many years of missed opportunity!


Oh well at least we know now!